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sIgH~ my DeaRestTt PhOnE is DEAD!!!!!!!ARgHhHhive gotta use back to my old phone and its 3350 if im not wrong.omg!from coloured phone become that lousy phone.aRgh..my favourite phone lehz!got so many stuff inside.and know what..i did not save the numbers in my SIM card.i saved it all in the phone memory!!!!!!!omg..and all my contacts...iTS all GOnE......................thank God i wrote all the numbers down when ive changed my number.hahaa!pheWww....sigh...my important smses..oh no...its gone...sighz..so sad can..aRgh..-gone-
i see BRIGHT LIGHT!went to school today for my NAPFA test.and it went terrible.i got 33 for sit&reach.39 for sit-up.160 for standing broad jump and 12++for my shuttle run.got 20 for pull up.and as for my 2.4km run..-shake head-its monday.and my monday went totally sick.i ran four rounds without stopping and on the fifth i got pains liao..gastric.hehe..den walk..hahaz.then i almost fainted..coz i couldnt see my frenz.all i could see is bright bright light shining one.haha!den i cant hear..one of my fren was shouting to me den i replied..why you talk so soft?can louder abit?haha!and my helpful kind frenz hold on to me...and walk me to the Cafeteria 2.hehe..thanks for the help..anyway.about what my brother said to me.i decided to forget about it.though im still in the healing process now.heartaches alittle when i think of it.but its okie..soon it will come to pass.thanks to friends who talked to me about it.im better now..brother and sister quarrel is nan mian de.sighz....hahah!ive forgiven him.i just hate the way he say things.but i dont hate him lar.he is a very nice brother still..though his words can kill me...sighz..i will be healed soon...hahha..im craving for kaya toast..heeheee...joo joo...our next breakfast?okie?-gone-
-SATURDAY-a life of solitudeNDP the whole day today.mood wasnt that good.but i tried to smile and talk and stay like me.but i guess i somehow failed?after showing the audience whats in the fun pack.went to G4 and stay for awhile to wait for our turn to perform.during the performance i just try to stop thinking and just dance.well i did it.wuahaha.after the performance.went to yellow sector..thats where i was suppose to be at lahz.then the Choir started to sing songs.forgot what song already.all i know is,i almost teared.guess im just too free,for nothing i go and think about what he insulted me yesterday.i cant take it.it just hurt that much.the whole day today.my mind is all about what he insulted me.i dont care if he is angry or what.im so sure he is old enough to control his words.some words can hurt someone badly.i only know that my brother insulted me the way i thought he will never do.others can say that but not him.for he is my brother.all your filthy words really killed me.i went totally down.thinking back,i really just want to cry.i just dont understand why must you use those hurtful words on me.on any other person,the words that you use,also can hurt them.you just aint sensitive to how others feels.and today you just act as if theres nothing wrong.how can u ever accept someone whom you loved to name you something which you would never thought he will say.how can you ever forget in just a day over a filthy name given to you by someone whom you loved?if you can,i cant.someone ask me,how was my week?my ans was not good.and its true.flood...fall down...and ETC.i dun wanna name out..im just afraid im not able to do well in school..im just damn bothered over that insult.why must you do that.why?-gone-
i donno wad to say.but...i HATE you FOR INSULTING MEi HATE you FOR DEMORALISING MEi HATE you FOR SCOLDING MEi HATE you FOR YOUR ATTITUDE
and it all started coz of the stupid computerim sorry that i made a mess in the house.im sorry for being ignorant to the kittens toilet that caused e damn smell to be around the house.im sorry that you lose face when you bring your frens home.im sorry that ive got no responsibility.im sorry that im still childish.im sorry that im a slut like you say.yes its my fault for not clearing the kittens toilet.yes its my fault that my room is in a mess.yes its my fault that the whole house is untidy.im seriously sorry about it.im so sorry that i make you lose face infront of your friend.im sorry that you feel insulted for me.and im very very sorry to ask you to get out of the house...just coz of the vulgarities and insulting and demoralising words you said.i know ive gone too far..i promised you that i will clean the kittens toilet every week.and keep the house clean.and i'll make sure it will happen..well.i lost my cool while i see him with his STUPID face.SCOLDING INSULTING ETC at me and i did what he did.scold back.i know its wrong...when i hear that word SLUT.thats it.frm then on,u can never expect me to respect you anymore.i might be calling you,but you will never be who i think u are anymore.all the vulgarities you used on me...it still rings in my ears.and how u demoralise me.all were started by you....and i return you what you said.except for the vulgarities,i was not trained that WELL like you DO...have you ever hear me demoralising you insulting you?i had NEVER do that and sadly it happened today when u make my world turn upside down with hurtful words.sometimes i wonder..why would someone say sorry when they again did the same mistake again?just like him..love to insult demoralise me,scold vulgarities at me..for all these years.ya.im lazy to pack my room,so what if im a girl?yes girls tend to have rooms neatly packed.but sadly its me that u know..but do u know that not all girls are so PERFECT like who you want them to be?yes i admit im wrong for not tidying up my house..im really sorry..i admit im wrong for not cleaning the kittens toilet..im sorry too.all u were unhappy about was the untidy house and the kittens..and why cant you talk in a proper manner instead of insulting?demoralising?and scolding?sometimes when someone is down or tired-not tired as in wanna zzz..tired as in mentally tired.the person tends to stop doing things..and you not realising anything..not concerning.all you did was to say im a slut.slut to you means a girl with a messy room.your life in that FAVOURITE PLACE may be exciting for you.my life is study home study home.receiving stress,who can i talk to now?when im sad who can i turn to now?when im mentally tired and wanna look for someone,who can i talk to now?i can only look at the walls!u got it!!!i doubt you do and i guess you can never understand me.because you dont even know me.im down but im smiling and you donno coz you had never even try concerning me.and that is why i say,noone knows jessie.and thanks to you..someone who i always think is important to me..had killed me with words from his FILTHY MOUTH.in conclusion,im a bad girl.-gone-
i hate XIAO QIANG!!!regarding the xiao qiang.hehe..it did not live till morning haha!but i had a hard time killing and removing it.holding on to the spray and sprayed at it and screamed as i spray.and it play hide and seek with me.and then i found it and sprayed again and it died.but it moves!omg!and it can turn.over turn.omg!i was screaming like crazy.thanks to nelson for talking to me,so sorry that i screamed so loud on the phone.haha!and man,i tell you..that slimy disgusting filthy XIAO QIANG is SUPER BLACK i tell you.scares me like crazy.i almost turn mad.and ive got no idea why its dead and i still dont even dare to use the newspaper to pick it up to throw it into the -open and close-bin.hahahz.i just scream as i got closer to the XIAO QIANG.if im not wrong...i was screaming for one hour at home over one dead XIAO QIANG!YUCK!i HATE it LIKE CRAZIE~okie.today..kinda a fast day for me.go to school for like 2 hours,completed two assignments and off i go for NDP.it was fun there..hahazwell..ate one meal today and that is spaghetti and french fries..yummie.and im so hungry now....arGhh...wait till tomorrow comes.heehee..after the NDP training.jo called and asked if i wanna meet.i thought for a little while..dunno whats on jo's mind..now all i know is she meet me coz wanna use my computer..bad girl..im ya darling please.how can meet me for computer nia..ser mer friend lai de?hahha.just jk.i love you still haha!fren yi bei zi zi zi!!ahaha!-gone-
lalala~went to the National Library this afternoon with deary.hee.studied for 2 hours and im like half dead.write notes till my hand pain.regarding the flood..its finally done today.Praise the Lord haha!waited for so long finally its done.but im not sure its fully done.hahaz.been cleaning till im turning nuts.scrub and scrub..getting mad.hahaha..coz of that flood i missed lesson today loh.stupid flood.later teacher think i dont wanna study liao.need to study harder liao.miss lesson bad thing okie.stupid flood.man.should not have mentioned xiao qiang..ARGhH.coz my GREATEST FEAR is XIAO QIANG OMG..and i just saw one crawled across..and ive got no idea where is that THING now!omgz!how?how?manz...how to sleep in peace when theres XIAO QIANG crawling around my house?what if come to my bed?omg!if wilson is at home..im sure tt XIAO QIANG will not live till tomorrow..and im gonna make sure that XIAO QIANG is dead when im gonna sleep.stupid XIAO QIANG.arGHhh..-chills-yucks!-gone-
boring boring boring.......im home~so sianz.reached school ard 230pm.all flood fault!lesson start at 12pm okie!arGh.thank God Mr Goh excused me.if not..i'll be dead.and BSA lesson with Goh starts at 3pm and it ends at 4pm.so i just go to school for an hour and all i did was type out one assignment on Excel and off i go home.while walking home from the mrt station,walk pass this roadside fruit store?then this man said something but i forgot lah.something something you jian dao ni.something something fang xue ler ah?and hor.its not the first time he said that sentence already..whenever i walk pass he will say that.felt so wierd..and i quickly walk as fast as i could pretending i did not hear anything.how i wish its saturday..coz wilson will be home!!!how i wish he can be home everyday.just to pei wo.hahah!selfish jessie hor.hahha!actually all i want is someone im close to,staying at home..don't have to talk or play with me.just be there..i just want the prescence.haaha!eat with me can liao.thats all.not too much right..haha!im hungry.but i don't know what to eat..noodle for dinner everyday abit sick of it already lehz.what to eat ner?-cracking brain--gone-
ArghH FLOOD AGAIN!woke up at 10am to get prepared for school.lesson starts at 12pm.so sad gotta wake up so early..ARghh.then,the moment i open my room door..i just said:wadda and stare at my kitchen floor...IT FLOOD AGAIN!sighz...sighz..SIGHZ...it seems like calling the town council also have got no use?i called the town council yesterday and the plumer came but he told me"eh..likedat wierd lehz,here flood but the bathroom never flood..eh wierd lehz."den i just stare at the floor lohz.then the uncle say call the towncouncil after 830 today..and so i called them lohz..and they said:we will send our plumer down.i was like thinking to myself saying:didnt you send your plumer down yesterday?wad i want is just someone to come and check...and well..i don't know anything so i just say OKIE to the operator.and coz of that,i gotta miss my lesson..called Mr Goh..he said okie..excused..come at 1pm den.so i okie lohz..since my CA excused me.hahaz.i hate floodss...especially when my brother is not at home with me...aRgHH...stupid flood spoil my day..guess my kitchen floor will be more cleaned than my living room..i wash the kitchen floor almost EVERYDAY!i dont cook at home still gotta wash..arGh..and always the flood just come when im alone..not when my brother is home..aiyo!!!pc lehz....thats the problem when staying alone..one of the disadvantage..come,let me list down the disadvantages:1. gotta pack the house all by yourself2.gotta clean the house all by yourself3.if anything happen,you can turn to yourself or maybe go bang the wall?4.noone will help if anything happen in the house,so gotta base on ya knowledge and experiences to handle them ALL BY YOURSELF5.and as for my case,people will just come in and out of ya house and "search" ya house and says they are trying to help you.when in the point of time they also took some $ when they found INSIDE the house.and can even joke about it to me and not returning my $ to me.so good hor?6.things just disappear when im not at home.btw..almost the whole family have got my housekey.omg..sad case for me.that is the problem when you are living alone when you are so young..7.if someone uses the toilet and dirties it,they will not cleaned it..and who does that sai kang?me loh.haha!anyway my uncle stays in a hotel also known as jessies house.why i says its hotel..come back super late and leave super early lohz.8.people will just treat ya house as a warehouse..put so many thing here!stupid people..my house become their warehouse.9.if got xiao qiang,to people who are afraid of them,you gotta kill it YOURSELF and PICK it UP YOURSELF.trust me,i did it..and i just cried out loud!in the middle of the night wor ahahha!looking at the shiny xiao qiang.why shiny?spray too much liao.haha!and that xiao qiang is facing me as if its not dead..and i just cry till i reach the dustbin haha!10.the house is too quiet..you might turn up to be like zi bi zhen?haha!you may feel alone most of the time...aiya..and many many lohz..staying alone is just a disadvantage..so trust me,never stay alone lahz.i just hate staying alone..-gone-
OUCHHharGhh.i fall down at home please.aRghh.-roll eyes-.i was washing my kitchen's floor and my house phone rang.so i rush to my room and along the way..i slipped and fell!and hurt my knee!!!and now i can see the blueblack so big!aRgh..so ugly..my leg already so ugly liao and with this thing on my knee..omg!!sigh.got my Office Procedures test result.sigh..eventhough its only a small test..marks not included..but i did badly..all because i did not study hard..sighz..failed by 5 marks.omg..its like oh man..its the end..sighz..it just the beginning..guess i shall not dwell too much..i'll study harder the next time round...-sighz-im craving for chocolate and yes i run to my house downstair de shop to buy chocolate!hahahahz..YUMMIE!!!chocolate yum yum chocolate yum yum....my hair....i miss...my hair...........chocolate yum yum.....-gone-
ET~just finish watching ET.haha.was waiting for the show to start since i was awake in the morning haha!it was shown on channel 5 at 7pm haha!this show is simply interesting..hahha!ET so cute worz haha.and the friendship between the boy and ET.and the time when ET heartbeat stopped..i cried.ET so ke lian..they are like so loving yet the people lahz.don't know who are they lahs.so EXTRA.haha.and see the little boy helplessly looking at ET.poor ET.this is the first time i watch ET.nice show.i love it hahaz.anyway,the ending...was a HAPPY ENDING.hahaz.and now im alone at home again.looking at my kittens..running around in my living room.and milky wanna drink my pearl milk tea..so -tan xin-..tigger lehz..just sleep loh.hahaz.pig lai de.haha.went over to Tiong Bahru Plaza today.AGAIN.for lunch and went NTUC with wilson and janice.had burger king for lunch.man..im dying..fastfood like most of the time..feel like vomiting..and bought FRISKY!!for both tigger and milky.haha!its monday tmr..time flies so fast...WHY?my only sunday to relax.so fast and its gone.....DOTZ.-gone-
NDPphew..finally im home.finally.....pheww...its really a tiring day today.and it rained,and that rain causes me to feel super moody..din talk much today.don't feel like talking.im only super alive when its my turn to dance.i know it aint good to be that way..its today only..okie..invited joanna and serene for the NDP final rehersal and im glad that they turn up at Padang.thought serene will sms to say she cant make it.but well she didnt.hahaz.was looking high and low for the two bestie...and i found them haha.they are at the blue sector.8rows from the front.just nice for my height to see them.but....got this auntie.her umbrella keep moving and den for a little while im able to see jo.for a little while im not able to..aRgh..i was like -siao-coz i keep waving to jo like ive never waved before.well.im likedat..my way of saying hi..heeeee...after the whole parade..we gotta stay back for..erm..celebration..i thought got what nice giveaways..but its dancing..and im like huh?i only know the dance number 40 lehz..but den i just clap with the beat and shake my head like it gonna drop soon.hahahz..and jump like -siao woman-hahah!some people pour water on ME!omg.DOTZ.and make my hair wet!omg.DOTZ.bth!well..everyone was enjoying themselves..so its okie..theres this girl,also a motivator..she fall from the stage!and injured her neck...was sent to the hospital.man..injured neck lehz..dangerous loh.God please heal her....pray hard that she will get well soon...after the whole NDP thing,met up jo and serene at esplanade and head down to Tiong Bahru Plaza for our dinner and jo's erm?breakfast lunch and dinner?haha!jo is really like -shen xian-?she did not eat anything for the whole day..gosh!ate macdonald's.and while eating,was talking to serene..and we just keep on laughing.and please serene..its not nice to BURP infront of me STRAIGHT on my FACE okie..haha!and we laughed and laughed.laughed till i sounded like im crying hahha!had fun thou its just a dinner...hahaha!reached home..my sweet little babies are running about..haha.milky and tigger..haha!hmmm..they are getting bigger and bigger each day..meowing longer and longer each day...hahaz.wilson went over to aunts place yesterday to visit grandma,wanted to go too..but the moment i know aunt is there,i rather not go..the moment i see her,i remember the day of the flood..and her needless useless help that left me feeling helpless and angry..all thanks to her that i wasted 5 hours that very day.sighz...and so... i did not go and i went to sleep instead..sighzz...my grandma....miss her but nv see her..sighz...and den i dreamt that i got scolded from grandma,she blames me for not visiting her..blames me that she is worried for me...and many many lahz.sighz..wierd dream ive got.i'll visit her soon...dad called..heehee..i was like,phuaaa...he called!!!!!!!..ask hows everything..and we chatted..just for a little while he say he gotta end the call..i was like dad..please...its only for a little while..and he continued chatting with me,see..isnt he sweet?haha!and talked and talked...not long..ard five min oversea call..might cost him alot?hahaz.and he ended the call with,love you..i was like...-melt- hahaa!so long never hear from him calling me,and so long never hear him saying love me..and yes..got it..hahha!and so i said i love u too papa..hee...-blush- hahaha!oh..almost forgot to add something.i spot a handsome dude.haha!but i only see his side view lahz.from the band de lehz..haha.he look like erm,what his name?Wu Yan Zu-Daniel Wu-really lehz..handsome dude right..i mean Wu Yan Zu..but this band de guy look like him from his side view..and i keep looking at him..ahhahaz.was waiting for him to turn to let me confirm if he look like Wu Yan Zu or not..but sadly he did not..hahaa!rare kind okie..Wu Yan Zu-weeeeuuuuweeekk-haha!Wu Yan Zu is super handsome okie..thou i prefer Edison hahaa!-gone-
its thursday.finally~feeling so tired today.no idea why.hmm.woke up at 815am to get ready for school.lesson was suppose to start at 11am.but i have to be in school at 10am.just for one EXTRA lesson.but that EXTRA lesson de teacher is really a blur woman.someone called her to ask if theres any lesson and she said ya.at 10am.so everyone was informed and was there to be at her lesson,but to her mistake,she mistook tat person who called her as someone from the engineering course.and so theres no lesson today.and so,i slacked for like half an hour in school.....got the NDP tickets.got two tickets..wished i could have more.but well.padang too small.so nevermind..cant ask for more anyway.ive changed my number again and soon i will change again....bear with me for just a little while ya my friends..haha!things im craving for:-spaghetti-lagsane-pizza-chicken rice-duck rice-ABC soup-Tonic-Stingray-Sweet and Sour pork-Marche-French Fries-Mushroom Swiss burger-Ice Cream-Curry Puff-Chawamushi-Pig liver soup-Minced pork noodle-Harsh Brown-Big Breakfast-Sausage Muffin with Egg-Hot Cakes-Fillet O fish-Double Cheese Burgerand many mANy MORE!hahahahaz.thats show im very hungry!hahahz these are all my favourite!!!!!ahahahaz-gone-
i had a great day!well.today.hmm.got up early to be in school early wuahaha.and im really EARLY..lesson starts at 8 and im already waiting outside the door at 745am.super early.haha!and i was nagging and nagging coz Mr Goh is late for one min.and he said the day before that no one is allowed to be late.but he late.so not fair.hahaz.then one SW teacher walk pass and she said..wow..you are fierce..den i was like oppss...didnt mean to nag so much hahaha!malu-ating worz.hahaz.and that is how i started my day!hmm.what else?attended all lessons..haha!and i finished my e-tutor.100% lehz.haha!some is like erm...due to the school something connection problem that stopped me from doing some of my work..so i just click done haha!okie.joanna sms me.ahaha.surprised?haha i am actually..due to some problems occured i thought she will be too confused to even trust me..and again let me say it here to jo:you know me well enough that i dont talk such things about people.much more behind people..it will never come out from my mouth.and you know that i dislike such people.so its impossible that i am like them.and if i want to say,you will never heard it behind..coz i will tell you straight.you know right?haha!im so shocked by your answer when you said:bu ker neng.very good.that shows that you trusted me..love you many many...haha!jo comp got virus and so she cant use her comp..and seeing my poor friend so "ke lian"wuahaha..so i "offer" her to drop by my place to use my computer haha!are you touched jo?ahaha!-grins-thanks for helping me with my ma fan de kittens toilet..hahaz.i know the smell can kill.haha!its smells terrible!hahaa.din want to go out today.but i had not met serene for like dunno how long?half a year?or every 3-4 months?so add dinner over at her place..cook ourself okie..li hai ma?hahhaz..and our dinner is SPAGHETTI!!!yeah.my favourite..but i had never and i really mean never cooked SPAGHETTI before..so i call Janice,wilson,tf.haha!thanks to tf..eventhough don't have onion and dunno what..the spaghetti still turns out looking like spaghetti hahaha!a very nice one.hahaz..stayed at serene's place till 11.and off i go..HOME.stay very near so ard 15 mins and im home haha!while enjoying the spaghetti..watch snow angel..Toro was in the show..so ROMANTIC..hahah!ask serene to change to the last disc straight but she don't want..aiyo..if change liao i wont be like -xing yang yang ma-hahahha!oh yes..today while i was in the bus with jo..there this RUDE indian granny..she hor...aiyo..dont know how to say her..call people to move away is HELOO HELLOO...and i was like huh?????she was saying HELLO to jo lahz.but i was like whats WRONG with this granny..and she just keep hello-ing at jo.and i just tel the granny.urm..theres something here,she cant move...and i repeated it twice and that granny just stared at me..i was like please loh..want people to move..like say excuse me?wad hello?mei you manners...and i said:what hello,its excuse me..i really dislike people likedat..what hello..want me to say bye isit?tts about that granny..but i guess thats her way of saying EXCUSE ME?think i over-reacted?haha!its over anyway haha!ive enjoyed today..haha!oh yes..just notice something today..sometimes,when someone whom you thought had changed..actually it was just an act..isnt it sad?jo..cherrries okie..-gone-